Aunt Agony anyone?
i've been Aunt Agony to alot of people in the past few weeks. Adrian (ironic, considering he's 7 times my age), Hui Qing, Rodney, Jeannie etc. Apparently ALOT of people are having relationship problems during this period, and apparently i'm a good counsellor. haha. My dad's genes are in me. Or maybe it's my shit-ass LOW voice that people find soothing. :p Anyway, my room has semi-officially been converted into a counselling den, and my friends from all over the block come down to talk to me when they need a listening ear. Again, here's proof that i went into the wrong line of work cos my mouth moves better than my body does. damn... :p
And as i dish out advice to others, i reflect upon what's going on through my own mind. Then i realize it's easy to say but not so easy to do. It's so easy to tell someone else to move on, but the wounds inflicted on me are yet to heal, and they're only getting bigger and bigger with the way things are between us now.
She wont even talk to me as a friend, she ignores me and cuts me out of her life after bringing me into it. And i cannot understand why she's being so mean to me now. Maybe she wants me to hate her so that i'll move on myself. Maybe she wants me to hate her so she has a reason to move on.
But i cant seem to hate her. Hatred is a childish inclination.
Yeah, everybody's favaourite line when they become Aunt Agony themselves; "forget the past and look to the future". So easy to say, so difficult to do. Especially when I had already built a future on what i had in the past, and it was ripped from me with maximum pain.
Hey tubby, look on the bright side. A new future awaits me now. A future with more me in it.
I am my own Aunt Agony. :)
the past was full of roses and the present is full of thorns,
but from this garden of horrors my future will be reborn.
- tubby
Friday, February 16, 2007
FARTED @ 3:28 PM
